Cranky
Off-hand, broadside good intentions,
Oncoming semi– thoughtless, halfbaked concern.
Crumpled burning pumping thing,
ache-and-anger-exhaust piping throat.
Salt in water won’t stop the day, the work.
But ‘don’t mind,
don’t worry,
you hear too much,
let it drop,
don’t see already.’
Bus ticket fantasy.
Verbal bombs don’t leave bruises.
Lucky me.
Itch
What do you do
when your soul itches?
How do you scratch?
Ants in your bones–
hiccups in your heart–
a compulsion in your arms–
a kind of helpless,
hopeless desperation
to move. Muscles
remembering
a dance,
a flight,
a kinetic explosion
that they’ve never–
that you recall–
Never mind.
They do.
Weapons
Calluses on the
tip of my tongue
serrated edges
points wet sharp
throat hold tight
dear life
dear god
forgive the scars
on lips and ears
taste the blood in all the fears
iron knows itself
honed and hot
sheath me not
teeth and gums
were never meant
for this.
In the window
Darling, please–
see my neon
heart.
Buzzing, bright
idea of heat.
Electric beast,
a flickering
beat.
OPEN
VACANCY
ALL HOURS
FREE
See it beckon,
see it beg;
tubing burning
ionized hope.
All things willing,
you don’t mind lead.
Not Ready
I worry the universe
is answering long asked questions.
The way one tries
to never deny
a dying child
any request.
Tying up loose threads
at the end
of an epic
you find you’ve
lost interest in writing.
Hope (A year. And two.)
Begrudge them? Never.
Envy? Maybe.
Heartache mostly.
A little bit,
“Where’s my baby?”
Not demanding
a cut of mommy-life pie–
a strange search more
for a you who wasn’t.
Not really.
Confused sense that you,
who aren’t yet,
have simply been
mislaid.
Thank you.
Belated birthday
love you text
a month early–
silly, heart swell,
quick morning call.
Not my birthday,
not yet, it’s okay.
Catching up, everyone–
all fine, all good.
Normal, short, five words
stretch. Nice to talk,
time to stop.
Feeling blows to heartspill.
I couldn’t tell you why.
I guess I’m homesick for your smile.
I guess I need you still.